Dear sickness...

Dear sickness... I'm kicking you to the curb.

After 4 straight days of laying around on my couch suffering through fever and shallow breathing I'm rebelling against sickness. On the agenda for today... a bagel run with Megan and a trip to the grocery store! After that, I'm probably going to need a nap! Sad, but true.

There is something really good about being sick for a control freak like myself. It reminds me that life really can, and will, go on without me. It is important to me to feel needed and purposeful. And while I think that is a good thing in it's own rite, sometimes it gets out of hard and I feel like the Lord needs me. One of my favorite lines of a song is from Caedmon's Call's song "Two Weeks in Africa".

"We put the walls up, but Jesus keeps them standing.He doesn't need us, but He lets us put our hands in."

He doesn't need us... but I'm thankful He lets us put our hands in. What a good reminder for life and ministry and family and friendships. The responsibility does not rest on us to be perfect Christians, sisters, mothers, friends, youth workers, missionaries... the Lord is doing something... something big. And He is using us, imperfect jars of clay, to show that He is one who is doing it, he's just letting us be blessed to be a part of it.